Secretly

I'VE BEEN BIDING MY TIME,
BEEN SO SUBTLY KIND,
I GOT TO THINK SO SELFISHLY,
'COS YOU'RE THE FACE INSIDE OF ME.

I'VE BEEN BIDING MY DAYS,
U SEE EVIDENTLY IT PAYS,
I'VE BEEN A FRIEND,
WITH UNBIASED VIEWS,
THEN SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU.

SO NOW HE'S GONE RUSTY
YOU'RE BORED AND BEMUSED.

YOU WANNA DO SOMEONE ELSE,
SO YOU SHOULD BE BY YOURSELF,
INSTEAD OF HERE WITH ME,

SECRETLY.

TRYING HARD TO THINK PURE,
BLOODY HARD WHEN I'M RAW,
YOU TALKING OUT SO SEXUALLY,
'BOUT BOYS 'N GIRLS AND YOUR FRIGGIN' DREAMS

SO NOW YOU FEEL LUSTY,
YOU'RE HOT AND CONFUSED,
SO NOW YOU'VE BEEN BUSTED,
YOU'RE CAUGHT FEELING USED.

YOU HAD TO DO SOMEONE ELSE,
YOU SHOULD'VE BEEN BY YOURSELF,
INSTEAD OF HERE WITH ME,

SECRETLY,

SECRETLY.

>SKUNK ANANSIE<

UltraLounge for a better day.

So I have obtained the ultra-lounge collection. Joy.
I love the background noise that's everything from strange 1950's jungle jazz, to 1960's and 1970's weirdness. 

Fave's in the collection are Bongo Land, Mondo Hollywood, and the  Leopard Sampler.
So much other stuff to listen through.  It's great (and a little strange) to just play as background music through out the day.  Will be the highlight of any swanky martini party too!

There are a ton more too.
I'm happy to have gotten them all.  Even the Christmas Albums will be nice during their propper season.

upDATE

Date canceled due to jetlag.
I soon after did what any other man would do: Picked up a pizza, smoked a joint, and passed out soon after.  Emotional eating at its finest.

I am now going to watch 4 straight hours or more of 1980's movies, and aim to pass out sitting up.

Success.

Date:

Excited for my date with the hunky engineer tonight.
Not sure of exactly the plans, except he will be picking me up after 7:30.
Date numero 2. 

Perhaps this could be something to smile about.
at 41, the handsom fella stands 6 foot 8inches, drives a cute mercedes convertable, and enjoys anything outdoors, traveling, and riding bikes.

What a catch, right?

SleepWalk

I find myself awake, just before 5am.
Have an acheing for lobster topped pizza, and perhaps a tigh cuddle (the kind that makes your chest sweat from body heat under blankets.)

I think I feel some kind of change happening, whether that change is just in the weather or in my luck I can't say.  I feel close to something new though, and can't say if that's good or bad either.

Let's close our eyes, relax completely, and return to sleep.
The morning may bring magical things...

http://youtu.be/clvIbq8sBAU (This will help you fall asleep, everytime.)
enjoy the link.

G'night/morning

Poem: And when I met him.

I remember the warm feeling the first time our eyes met.
And when I met him, I sighed.

I sighed.

I sighed the kind of wimper a teenage girl makes when she is daydreaming of her pin-up boy.

Now, I sigh a parental sigh, a sigh of crisp, clean, complete disaproval.
Or the noise a lover makes when they know their time is up.

I remember the warm feeling the first time our eyes met.
And when I met him, I sighed.

Hopeful

I am excited about a new job I applied and interviewed for at a medical spa.
I may find out tomorrow, but am prepaired to wait until mid next week before I get worried.

It feels like the perfect job for me. The pay is great, the environment is relaxed, and it's simply stunning in there.


Love: Been missing a lot of a close friend lately, thinking I may be stupidly in love with him is dumb, but fair.  Otherwise why is he on my mind morning through night?  No other leads.

Food: Attempting to eat less of it.

Friends: One of my bff's is pregnant.  Excited.  Another is off to Vancouver with some other friends. (Green is not a good colour on me.)  And a long lost friend has been slowly working her way back in.  Texts, and at long last... a phone call today. 

Feeling under the weather today, so decided a dont go to work day was in order.

xoxo

Here's to my first blog.

Tonight seems to be a good of a night as any to start blogging.

I think with the amount of amazing random events in my day to day life, why not document and share them with the world, or the 2 people out there that may or may-not read this.

Work: Full work week ahead of me, and that's starting to feel normal. 13-14 hour days are becoming the standard, and I am fine with that, except when I am unsure of which locations and times i work the following day... like tomorrow... zero idea where in the city I will be.  I have written down my schedule, but misplaced it somewhere. Yikes.

Love: No prospects. 

The man I love and have always loved is so wrong for me. That being said, it is probably a good thing that he is not interested...

I have been patiently waiting on a new friend to introduce me to her "cute" cardiologist cousin.  He's in my age group, has a great job, and sounds great, even if just by association.  That's all I know.

With getting the brush off last week from the cutey I had hooked up with, my fear of rejection is looming.  I'm hoping that this is the end of a cycle, instead of the start.

Food: Made Indian food last night for my friend jackson.  It was pretty yummy.

Friends: Most seem pretty busy lately, with work and weddings, and life.  I work so  much that I crave a night with friends, and for the last few weekends have been getting what I want... Mostly.  Somehow I need to try aand see the people I want to without having to go to a bar...  This (binge) drinking thing is starting to have an effect on me.